I have mixed feelings about leaving.
At one side, i feel sad that I'm leaving, the other is void.
My heart is aching as now i truly understand the saying
"One Must Lose Something to Truly Appreciate it"
It's not that I take everything here for granted, its just that I never knew that leaving was so hard. Kudos to those who did it with no emotions. To leave behind everything at that time when I made up my mind to take the first chance to study abroad was so easy. To actually go through it to me, is hell.
I met up with a very dear friend recently. That really made my day. Friends can change so much in a year, but true friends will always have each other in their hearts. Distance WAS a problem, but it no longer is now. We're fucking special. =)
It has been 1 year, 2 months and 11 days since you were mine, I love you so much... Thank you for everything you've done for me and I'm sorry for all the pain I've caused. Just because i don't say i'm sad because i'm leaving doesnt mean i'm not. I just cant bear to say it to you... My heart is already cracking because im leaving.. to say it out to you will just break it...
Your touch, your smile, your laugh, your voice, your kisses, your hugs, fuck your everything, i'm gonna miss them so much... I'll always be thinking about you baby... don't worry alright... I know your sad, but i'll be back soon. <3
Ouch, my heart hurts.
Sunday, February 24, 2008
Wednesday, January 30, 2008
It's a three-fold, utopian dream
Is it me or there just isn't anymore nice things to shop around for? I've been spending the past few weeks walking in malls with the intention to splash some money and yet I leave the malls empty handed. Hmmm... someone please give me their feedback on this..
Chinese New Year's round the corner, you can always tell when majority of the shops in malls start playing ah beng versions of traditional Chinese New Year songs. Don't you feel disgusted? For crying out loud... who the fuck wants to hear some CNY song which has a heavy bass and a fucking fast rhythm... Imagine the song "Gong Xi Fa Cai" being played at x10 the normal speed and every 2 or 3 seconds a fucking heavy bass goes off... FUCKING CHINESE NEW YEAR LA.... PLAY THE NORMAL 1 LA PLEASE!!! FUCKING LET YOU HEAR A TECHNO VERSION OF NEGARAKU YOU LIKE AH...
*Ps... why must there be only techno version's of Chinese New Year songs? Why isn't there any Hari Raya techno la...? Fair abit please...
Baby's sick right now... Hope she gets better soon.... >.<
I beg everyone who read this post to please pray for her to get well soon. Thank you. =)
Baby.. drink more water k... sleep more get more rest and dun so emo always k... must look after yourself please.... <3
Chinese New Year's round the corner, you can always tell when majority of the shops in malls start playing ah beng versions of traditional Chinese New Year songs. Don't you feel disgusted? For crying out loud... who the fuck wants to hear some CNY song which has a heavy bass and a fucking fast rhythm... Imagine the song "Gong Xi Fa Cai" being played at x10 the normal speed and every 2 or 3 seconds a fucking heavy bass goes off... FUCKING CHINESE NEW YEAR LA.... PLAY THE NORMAL 1 LA PLEASE!!! FUCKING LET YOU HEAR A TECHNO VERSION OF NEGARAKU YOU LIKE AH...
*Ps... why must there be only techno version's of Chinese New Year songs? Why isn't there any Hari Raya techno la...? Fair abit please...
Baby's sick right now... Hope she gets better soon.... >.<
I beg everyone who read this post to please pray for her to get well soon. Thank you. =)
Baby.. drink more water k... sleep more get more rest and dun so emo always k... must look after yourself please.... <3
"You do something to me that I can´t explain.
So would I be out of line if i said
I miss you."
Tuesday, January 8, 2008
Will You Count Me In?
Thanks to some technical difficulties, this post is up a few days late...
Finally a day at home without anyone staying over. Home suddenly feels a little lonelier here without anyone of the same age to hang around with. Don't get me wrong, there's still the family, but well they're family.
Craze for the PS2 is back for some funny reason. Guess its most probably something we haven't really played in awhile. And what is it with the funny stares that people give me when I told them that I stopped playing DOTA because it was boring? Tiu... right hand on mouse, left hand on keyboard. Choose game title in bnet/blueserver/LAN, talk some cock in chat, game starts. Stares cock at loading screen hoping that it will load a little faster and cursing those who have a slightly slower internet speed. Some stupid chicken crows and the games starts. Host types -ap or in some cases -ar or some other extra commands. Player gets hero, if not satisfied will start pestering other players to swap with them. If ignored, player will get pissed and types -repick. Gets some other random hero, if its a hero player does not know how to play, he'll complain "Oh no! This hero I dunno play! But nvm I try, if lose dun blame me ah.." Players will start moving to lanes after receiving heroes. Around 1.35-1.40 min, a horn starts to blow and creeps start walking out. Farming starts...
10 mins later -
Player ah beng : WTF!! y no1 tel me yellow ms he fuckin bs me jst now....
Player Cb: tiu ownself duno c ah...
Player ah beng : nia sing, u know wat is team work
Player Cb : team work ur lanjiao, u noob say la
Player ah beng : fuck u i noob, i fuckin own u la k
Player Cb : bla bla bla (*forgotten the common insults that used to plague DOTA public games)
Argument goes on and on and on til some other player steps in and asks for a truce from both sides. Game continues.
30 mins later - ( please note that after this little time, players have most probably click the left and right buttons on the mouse well over 500 times )
Player ah beng : come, push mid
Player soh7: okok coming.
Push fails
Player soh7:eh fuck la u c push push push now lose d la sohai noob
Player ah beng: wat sohai noob u fucking noob 2 v 1 u run away go back suck ur mothers pussy la
Player soh7 : whatever la... only know how 2 talk so much cock...
Player ah beng : bla bla (* throws insult back)
By this time, the opponent team will have most probably gotten into the base of their enemy.
20 mins later-
Enemy team has broken all barracks. Players says gg to each other. Some will even add comments like noobz.... boring... sienz... more challenge please... go back home and suck cock la.. and etc... Most often the winning team will boast about how much money they have and how easily they got their "GODLIKE" ITEMS. Losing teams tries to defend by saying they gave chance, bored, don't how to play and etc... After watching either the tree of life or the frozen throne explode, players get a review of everything including how many creeps they killed and denied. Players click end game and returns to channel. Players who lost will try to vent out their anger by joining another game and thus repeating the cycle again. Players who won will most probably do the same thing as their ego tells them that now they can win anyone, thus the cycle repeats again.
Please note that I left out the part of how the players kill each other using their heroes. I find it a very stressful thing to write about because I maybe criticized for insulting their lovely heroes. One thing is for certain, be sure to hear a boast about a kill from the opposing team or teammates. A DOTA game can't be called a DOTA game without one.
( They're some instances where I've met players who don't boast, but they're a minority and that was in the past. )
left + right click for more den 700 times in an hour, exchanging insults and getting emotional at a person who you'll never meet in your life and boasting about items and how you killed an opponents hero in a virtual game. Seems quite fun to me... maybe that's why there's still so many people out there devoting their life to this game. I wish them all the best.
Idiots...
And specially for my babi <3
Goodnight everyone... oh ya.. happy new year... =)
Finally a day at home without anyone staying over. Home suddenly feels a little lonelier here without anyone of the same age to hang around with. Don't get me wrong, there's still the family, but well they're family.
Craze for the PS2 is back for some funny reason. Guess its most probably something we haven't really played in awhile. And what is it with the funny stares that people give me when I told them that I stopped playing DOTA because it was boring? Tiu... right hand on mouse, left hand on keyboard. Choose game title in bnet/blueserver/LAN, talk some cock in chat, game starts. Stares cock at loading screen hoping that it will load a little faster and cursing those who have a slightly slower internet speed. Some stupid chicken crows and the games starts. Host types -ap or in some cases -ar or some other extra commands. Player gets hero, if not satisfied will start pestering other players to swap with them. If ignored, player will get pissed and types -repick. Gets some other random hero, if its a hero player does not know how to play, he'll complain "Oh no! This hero I dunno play! But nvm I try, if lose dun blame me ah.." Players will start moving to lanes after receiving heroes. Around 1.35-1.40 min, a horn starts to blow and creeps start walking out. Farming starts...
10 mins later -
Player ah beng : WTF!! y no1 tel me yellow ms he fuckin bs me jst now....
Player Cb: tiu ownself duno c ah...
Player ah beng : nia sing, u know wat is team work
Player Cb : team work ur lanjiao, u noob say la
Player ah beng : fuck u i noob, i fuckin own u la k
Player Cb : bla bla bla (*forgotten the common insults that used to plague DOTA public games)
Argument goes on and on and on til some other player steps in and asks for a truce from both sides. Game continues.
30 mins later - ( please note that after this little time, players have most probably click the left and right buttons on the mouse well over 500 times )
Player ah beng : come, push mid
Player soh7: okok coming.
Push fails
Player soh7:eh fuck la u c push push push now lose d la sohai noob
Player ah beng: wat sohai noob u fucking noob 2 v 1 u run away go back suck ur mothers pussy la
Player soh7 : whatever la... only know how 2 talk so much cock...
Player ah beng : bla bla (* throws insult back)
By this time, the opponent team will have most probably gotten into the base of their enemy.
20 mins later-
Enemy team has broken all barracks. Players says gg to each other. Some will even add comments like noobz.... boring... sienz... more challenge please... go back home and suck cock la.. and etc... Most often the winning team will boast about how much money they have and how easily they got their "GODLIKE" ITEMS. Losing teams tries to defend by saying they gave chance, bored, don't how to play and etc... After watching either the tree of life or the frozen throne explode, players get a review of everything including how many creeps they killed and denied. Players click end game and returns to channel. Players who lost will try to vent out their anger by joining another game and thus repeating the cycle again. Players who won will most probably do the same thing as their ego tells them that now they can win anyone, thus the cycle repeats again.
Please note that I left out the part of how the players kill each other using their heroes. I find it a very stressful thing to write about because I maybe criticized for insulting their lovely heroes. One thing is for certain, be sure to hear a boast about a kill from the opposing team or teammates. A DOTA game can't be called a DOTA game without one.
( They're some instances where I've met players who don't boast, but they're a minority and that was in the past. )
left + right click for more den 700 times in an hour, exchanging insults and getting emotional at a person who you'll never meet in your life and boasting about items and how you killed an opponents hero in a virtual game. Seems quite fun to me... maybe that's why there's still so many people out there devoting their life to this game. I wish them all the best.
Idiots...
And specially for my babi <3
Goodnight everyone... oh ya.. happy new year... =)
Friday, December 7, 2007
Programming 101
I feel like shit.
"Most probably the person who gave the price quotation last week did not include the extra beds you ordered."
THANK YOU BASTARDS FOR SCREWING UP AND LETTING ME TAKE THE FALL. THANK YOU OH SO FUCKING MUCH. TIUNIASING CAUCIBAI....ZZZZ ISH if only this was the only thing that happened today... i wouldn't be so pissed....zzzz
To screw up at this time, when there's only one day left before the trip is not something I would expect, so try to imagine how I felt when I called the hotel to reconfirm my reservations and price only to find out that the price that I was quoted last week had risen by rm363. When I asked them why had the price rise, they replied saying that,
"Most probably the person who gave the price quotation last week did not include the extra beds you ordered."
WHAT THE FUCK LA... NOW ONLY YOU FUCKING TEL ME THAT THE PRICE QUOTED TO ME WAS WRONG? HMM WOWEE NOW I HAVE THE FUCKING JOB TO TEL EVERYONE ELSE THAT I TOLD THEM THE WRONG PRICE AND THEY EVEN HAVE TO PAY EXTRA FOR THE TRIP!!! FUCKING GOOD CUSTOMER SERVICE WEI... WAT ELSE? OH YA! THE CONFIRMATION LETTERS... I CALLED YOUR HOTEL 4 FUCKING TIMES TO ASK YOU ALL FOR THE FUCKING CONFIRMATION LETTER, AND ALL YOU COULD SAY WAS "THE SERVER SHOWED THAT WE HAD SENT YOU THE CONFIRMATION LETTER." MAHAI, IF I HAD RECIEVED THE FUCKING LETTER I WOULDN'T HAD WASTED MY TIME TO CALL YOUR FUCKING HOTEL RIGHT... MOTHER FUCKERS.
THANK YOU BASTARDS FOR SCREWING UP AND LETTING ME TAKE THE FALL. THANK YOU OH SO FUCKING MUCH. TIUNIASING CAUCIBAI....ZZZZ ISH if only this was the only thing that happened today... i wouldn't be so pissed....zzzz
Tuesday, December 4, 2007
Tomorrow's A Good Day.
One paper's done, leaving only calculus... hate that feeling of being so near yet so far... right dereck? xD
Was wondering what its like being forced out of your own comfort zone by those you call your own? Not being able to do anything about it and barely being able to cope up with all the changes that comes with it. Funny thing to wonder about no? Truth is I know someone who's living this kinda life and when I try to put myself in that person's shoes, I can't imagine it. So much for having a great imagination... oO
To do list for tomorrow:
- Batu Panjat <-- looking forward to this.those that tried it before should know what i mean
- Foosball
- Berjudi
- Lepak
- Ambil duit dari orang
- Ignore/Forget about the other half <-- sorry but you know why la =P
By the way, here's a quote that I found the other day that I think would be a waste if I don't share it:
"A man will give a woman a dress so he may undress her later"
Don't you agree?
Don't you agree?
Monday, December 3, 2007
Sunday, December 2, 2007
Hold hands, slow dance while the record spins. . .
For every passing day, there is not one that i don't think about you. We've been through so much together this year that i've almost forgotten what it's like without you. For every passing day, my love grows a little deeper for you and i cant seem to see why. Oh well, no complaints. You are one in a million and im very lucky that ive found you my baby. I love you.
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